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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 03:38

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

She married twice! .

I said to her

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

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We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

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With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

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I could never make a relationship work though!

He knew the spot.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

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A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Why is my ex mad I moved on when he dumped me?

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

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Where the ultimate outsiders.

She wouldn,t have been !

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

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She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

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Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I was scared of men, in general

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

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We were not on the streets..

All the time i was locked up.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

What does it mean if someone asks if it’s pink?

This is soul school!.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I have no regrets .

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Would this be the day?

Comes on , in middle age.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

And i lived it daily.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

But, we were locked up after school.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

My family never makes their pension either.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

One cannot live in the past .

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I don,t even have a pension.

He resisted the act ,that day.

She found it foreign!.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

When she asked me how she looked .

I couldn’t, believe it.

As i do to all so called friends.?

So, i spoilt her more .

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

We all went to grammer schools

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I was very sick at this time too.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I will be 64.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

My life is so biszare .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I was 9 years of age.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Put me off passion for life!!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I write beautiful poetry .

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

But it wasn’t much.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I waited trembling.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

She was in good health!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Who then, do I blame.?

My mum and dad in the seventies!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Im still living with it.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

What did i know ?

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I never cut or harmed myself..

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

But ive been too sick for many years..

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

It was going to be , some day.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I think the readers, may guess!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Ive learnt so much.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Especially a lifetime of it.

She loved him until the end.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Why did i forgive my father ?

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I was seconnd youngest,

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

So whats the point in blame.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.